There is a vulnerability that never goes away if you are a writer, or I suspect a singer, painter, sculptor, or anyone else who creates. We hope you like it. Actually, we hope you love it–and us. And if you don’t, well, sometimes we listen to that inner voice that told us all along that we are frauds and need to hang up our dream, as painful as that may be.
For many years, I’ve cited master storyteller Harry Chapin’s song “Mr. Tanner,” the fact-inspired saga of a Midwestern dry cleaner who loved to sing, when I speak to writers. Mr. Tanner gambled big and put on a recital in New York… to bad reviews. In Chapin’s story, Mr. Tanner from then on only sang late at night, alone, at his shop. The song’s chorus resonates with any creative: “He sang from his heart and he sang from his soul/And he did not know how well he sang, it just made him whole.” Just write, I counsel those fearful of making a mistake in grammar or story structure. Just write because you have to. Just write because you can’t imagine not writing. Don’t give up the way Mr. Tanner did, regardless of what people say.
Earlier this year, I was giving the opening address at a writers’ conference, and decided to see if I could find out anything about the real Mr. Tanner. It didn’t take a lot of effort; his name is Martin Tubridy, and he lives in the Northeast. His recitals in March 1971 and February 1972 were scorched in The New York Times, which used phrases such as “lacking tonal steadiness and adequate phrasing” and “not up to generally accepted levels of professional accomplishment.” My heart ached anew for this man, who was in his 30s at the time. It’s one thing to get a bad review at Yelp or Amazon. It’s entirely another thing to be told to call it quits in one of the nation’s leading newspapers (especially in the days long before Yelp or Amazon).
But lo and behold, unlike Mr. Tanner, Mr. Tubridy did not hang it up. In fact, you can find him on YouTube, singing “This Is My Song,” based on Sibelius’ “Finlandia.” Mr. Tubridy’s Juilliard-trained daughter created the video in 2012 when he was in his early 70s. It is perhaps the perfect song choice, as the first verse speaks of hopes and dream.
Martin Tubridy’s YouTube video has been viewed fewer than 1,200 times, and I probably represent close to a dozen of those views. Is he any good? I don’t know. What I do know is that I am inspired by the persistence, ego, confidence, whatever you want to call it, of a person who stuck to his passion regardless of what others thought, who kept creating because, as Chapin sang, “It just made him whole.”
Thank you for posting this. I’ve been a big Harry Chapin fan a lot of my life. I just recently discovered that Mr Tanner was based on Mr Tubridy.
I have written over 3,000 poems in my life and a handful of short stories. I was starting a couple longer works when I had a calling for a couple other (non-writing) projects. I have an entrepreneurial spirit and I’m working on creating a backyard game. It is currently what is making me whole. Perhaps that something will be writing again some day.
Thank you again for posting this link to Mr Tubridy’s song.
Thank you, Kevin… and write on!
Melanie,
I very big thank you for your research and sharing. Mr. Tanner has always been one of my favorite songs. Each of my adult children love this song as well – of course they heard it at least weekly growing up. Great writing, you sing to my soul. Once again thank you
Thanks, Jerry! I am humbled.
I too was in search of Mr Tanner…I watched his video..knowing he was 70 its a good song sung well..funny how some people never forget..and make the search effort….from the heart no matter how poor the voice Ill like it because you cant fake from the heart. Thank you for your story it has made me whole.