Note: On Tuesdays and some Sundays, you can find me at Your Daily Tripod, owned by my friend TonyD. A longer version of the post below appears there.
When I returned to the Catholic Church after thirty-three years, I loved today’s Gospel reading from Matthew 18:
“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them goes astray, will he not leave the ninety-nine in the hills and go in search of the stray? And if he finds it, amen, I say to you, he rejoices more over it than over the ninety-nine that did not stray.”
I also loved the one about the prodigal son, and the one about the vineyard workers. They said to me that God loved me, no matter how long I’d been away, no matter how “those people” in the pews might look askance at my fumblings back toward faith.
It brought me up a bit short when I pondered these stories further and realized they weren’t just about people who left the Church and came back. They were about “those people” in the pews who’d had Him all along but who, being human, struggled and sinned and strayed. They could be lost sheep too. And God loved them every bit as much as He loved me… and desired me to love them as well.
It didn’t seem fair, somehow. Why would God rejoice just as much in the penance of someone who was in the confessional every week as He did in my return?
Finally, it hit me one day as I was singing along to “All We Like Sheep” from Handel’s Messiah with its beautiful lyrics from Isaiah 53: “All we like sheep have gone astray/We have turned every one to his own way.”
How big the turn is needn’t concern us. The point is that we all do… and regardless, the Lord is thrilled when each and every one of us turns back.